The Story Of Two Hearts

beginning a journal because these thoughts i can't take them any more...i am going insane...they speak to me about truth and power,revenge and mishap...i don;t know what to do anymore...its'''like the whole world is on my shoulders....being born into this world with the twilight heart was horrible...all the "perks" of it...no thanks...being wanted by major groups...the organization taking the mother of my ex boy friend and his family...crossing the organization creating a war between the black hand society which failed to where they drew allies...good allies...the end empire...being able to take on the other group the heartless...but some how...the master of the heartless....is me...?...
she somehow can resist there darkness...she somehow...is more powerful then them....more powerful then anyone can imagine...
i hope all of this stops soon....cause i can't keep up with my heartless...she is beating me to a point where i feel i am losing...

my world is twisting turned upside down i am wondering was it right for me to loathed someone i use to old dear to my heart...?
was this someone even WORTH? any of my time...was he worth my life...i guess i will never know till all the answers have shown themselves...

the darkness...i became a heartless...so where is my nobody to the rescue...?
....guess its just those with the luck...i guess i to am like him...i have to ponder to the darkness for power...but i never searched for power...i am just lost in it...